~We who have nothing~

Those who seek to avoid death are the first to be taken by it's hand

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 05:42:58 GMT

Ugh, finally an update. A shame I happen to be very, very sick. However it gave me the time to figure why the stupid lj cut wouldn't work for me. It was because anytime I tried to use it my computer would start freezing or something, I'd hit a key and BOOM. No working cut. Should be working this time thankfully. If not I'm going to just say screw it forever. -shrug-

You know it's times like this I wonder why can't I seem to get things to work? Not to mention I'm feeling more and more like I should break up with my boyfriend. It's as if I don't care for him...I just...am more attracted to other females. That and I have a major trouble/slight fear of most males due to certain things that have happened. No rape or anything like that. Just you know...typical emotional and mental abuse problems. I guess I've never thought too much of it. Still don't. But sometimes things work out like that I suppose. We tend to hold more trust to those who've offered us support. That may be why I prefer females. All the people who have been closest to me are all girls. Weird as it may be.

On a more...different note~. I've been doing some weird things on gaia. Like...the crossover chatroom thing. Interesting, let me tell you. On the bright side a friend on gaia I've gotten into Trinity Blood. An my RCO fandom shipping made her an RCO fan. Yay. <3

So my friend(the one who've I've made an RCO fan. >3 )asked me to join as a few people. Who do I end up picking? Cain and Dietrich. So, us (as in everyone in the rp and myself) are talking about those cross-over crack pairings to break the cannon ones. We've come up with some interesting cross-over ones. I'm in two, so...now both Cain and Di are/going to end up in some sort of relationship. I'm wondering how we got on these pairings.
Cain is going to end up with Diva from Blood +. Why? Because we want the weird, evil killers together. AND! If they ever had kids those would be some wicked children. Also, Dietrich and Marluxia. Yaoi, yumm. Yasha's idea, I decided that I don't mind it. What's interesting is a friend of mine joined as Esther on there. Oh we're both having a hard time keeping ourselves from jumping on the pairing. Provided I had a hard time when another friend of mine joined as Isaak. We do make reference to Isaak having done things with Di...and of course having slept with Cain a few times. We bad.
Now my boyfriend has joined too. Oh boy. Keeps bothering me to join as this person so we can roleplay romantically together. Uh...no. For some reason that has never been an all too appealing thought.
On another different note I've been thinking I need to get into writing soon again but I lack the effort to do so. No living muses. I need someone around to kick them back into working. For some reason though I really, really want to write for Isaak. Damn magician is too hard to pass up. Sadly I lack any reason to write/any ideas. I would use something from a private roleplay of mine but there things are fairly OOC. As Cain is a over-dramatic whore. Not joking. Well...he's not always over dramatic but he does seem to be a bit dramatic. More so when it involves getting Abel in bed. We have weird minds. Ugh, I ramble too much when trying to think on subjects lately. Stupid mind. Ah well. I'm off to try and bring my mind back from the dead to write something. And try and stop being sick. Ta~.

Mexico and a random life update!

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 19:59:00 GMT

Look I'm not dead! Oh my it's a shame isn't it? I'm joking I swear it.

So Christmas was pretty blah. Grandpa is kind of not there anymore. We're trying to put him in a home but some people in the family think that we should just keep taking care of him lke we have which is unfair. We shouldn't have to sacrifice our time for him when they don't even lift a finger to help him. I got 100 dollars and 15 dollar giftcard to walmart. Oh and some DVD that holds no interest to me. One of my nieces whose like twenty something overdosed on something. God knows what. She's never really been close to me and she's not dead so...hey. Whatever. As always the family makes fun of me and my boyfriend. In fact most everyone does. Hence why people who are not family have cuts on their necks. I may not have long nails but I know how to use them. -winkwink- Ha! I never lose when people insult me! Except on the internet because here I tend to semi-fail some of the time.

Okay so it's not deadly. Not that I know. Of course it's only my third day here and I don't get the camera because family is lame like that. Compared to North dakota, thirty below let me tell you I'm damn happy to be here. The ocean is a lot louder then I thought it would be. Try to sleep...CRASH. It is beautiful though. In fact we're in a condo where we can stare outside at the ocean like I am now. Yea I set up the laptop near a window so I can look outside now and then. It's sad how much of a computer addict I am. There's a part where you can go swimming in the ocean because there's rocks further out which hold the tide down enoguh for you to swim without getting pulled into the ocean. I went in there and I got to my waist then I saw three fish and a turtle! It was so cool! My mom hates the condo because it doesn't have a TV. My parents got the worse room too. The bed isn't stiff, and the shower leaks onto the floor. I don't have either of those problems and I am no way in hell changing rooms with them. Ah well. It's only a few more days. I'm only here for a little over a week so I'm not sure how many good pictures I'll have. ><;

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v26/Kikyo/Ocean.jpg

The ocean! Just a little attempt to try and get the tide coming in. Not sure if it's that interesting to other people but I think it looks nice.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v26/Kikyo/Chair1.jpg

Ew whose that?
That's me my dears! Those are these weird little statue/chair things. There's one in the backround where you sit between two gaint ears. I didn't really want to do that because it seemed silly to me but oh well. Family gets to boss me around a little bit I suppose. >>; A shame I can't boss them around.

The flea market is pretty interesting and the driving here...uh...I wish the buses had seatbelts. We'll say that. Not a fan of the driving. I mean in the central shopping area/downtown whatever you want to call it. Not a single stop sign or a stoplight! It's just insane to me! Not to mention half of the drinks here all have rum or something in it. I think there was something in my pepsi because it didn't taste quite normal. If I was only a few more years older I could have sex on the beach! (Not literally of course, just the drink. It looked tasty.) Not that the idea of actally doing that sounds bad either. Ehehe.

Change of topic:

I've had the worst writers block lately. I can't seem to get any character muses listening. I swear I'd take a bat to my head if it meant I could get a good story out again. It's getting annoying to have great ideas but not be able to write them out. I've had this amusing semi-AU fanfictioin going in my head which has to be far too much crack then it needs to be but I like crack stories! You should see me and jezi roleplay together. All the inside jokes, making fun of characters. Oh it's a joy. In fact one of my other friends has a inside joke about Cain and sex on the beach. Though if you know what we've done in our roleplay it's not too huge inside. "SP-" "Spoon?" "Spa..." Sorry inside moment. Oh that funny.

I need to find more music I think. Some of it's still good like always but I beleive I need new music to get me in a writing mood. I'm not sure who I should trust to help me though I tend to be semi-picky depending on the person. I hate that. I'm picky yet not picky. I mean I only have so many different artists. I have...six or seven hundred songs. You'd think at least ONE would make me want to write. But nooo they don't. Stupid music. The Last Dance kind of makes me want to write but that's always some sort of sadist rape story that I sure as hell am not putting up to the public. I'm not a fan of my own writing much less sexual things~~. My boyfriend hates me for that.~~ xD I mean there's only so much to sex. True there can be a lot moe if you involve other things. -cough- Any ways change of subject again before I say something I really shouldn't!

Dynasty Warriors 6. I've been looking at that a dear lord. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY ZHOU YU?! Not to mention...Sima Yi...Zhange He. I don't know what on earth happened to them. I wonder what Zhang He has a weapon. Sima Yi has claw things. Zhou Yu has a pole. Dao sword to a pole. Fail much? And Sun Ce has a spear. I WANT HIS TONFAS BACK! They made Cao Pi look lovely and Diao Chan. ~~She's so beautiful I'd easily become a lesbian for her.~~ Haha. Of course it's for PS3 which I don't have. Maybe I may save up and get one for the game. I also kind of Devil May Cry 4. Only...it's not Dante. Not Dante. Nero. I do not like that. I want Dante back damnit! -sighs-

I think I've rambled enough so I'm going to be heading off for now. I will keep with updates on my trip and if I do get to swim with the Dolphins like I really, really want to! <3
Please disregard all spelling errors for I am feeling very lazy today. Oh and still too lazy to mess with cuts or anything like that.
Bye bye~

-Celes Maria Raith-

Mexico and a random life update!

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 19:57:52 GMT

The deadly trip. xD

Okay so it's not deadly. Not that I know. Of course it's only my third day here and I don't get the camera because family is lame like that. Compared to North dakota, thirty below let me tell you I'm damn happy to be here. The ocean is a lot louder then I thought it would be. Try to sleep...CRASH. It is beautiful though. In fact we're in a condo where we can stare outside at the ocean like I am now. Yea I set up the laptop near a window so I can look outside now and then. It's sad how much of a computer addict I am. There's a part where you can go swimming in the ocean because there's rocks further out which hold the tide down enoguh for you to swim without getting pulled into the ocean. I went in there and I got to my waist then I saw three fish and a turtle! It was so cool! My mom hates the condo because it doesn't have a TV. My parents got the worse room too. The bed isn't stiff, and the shower leaks onto the floor. I don't have either of those problems and I am no way in hell changing rooms with them. Ah well. It's only a few more days. I'm only here for a little over a week so I'm not sure how many good pictures I'll have. ><;

[IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v26/Kikyo/Ocean.jpg[/IMG]

The ocean! Just a little attempt to try and get the tide coming in. Not sure if it's that interesting to other people but I think it looks nice.

[IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v26/Kikyo/Chair1.jpg[/IMG]

Ew whose that?
That's me my dears! Those are these weird little statue/chair things. There's one in the backround where you sit between two gaint ears. I didn't really want to do that because it seemed silly to me but oh well. Family gets to boss me around a little bit I suppose. >>; A shame I can't boss them around.

The flea market is pretty interesting and the driving here...uh...I wish the buses had seatbelts. We'll say that. Not a fan of the driving. I mean in the central shopping area/downtown whatever you want to call it. Not a single stop sign or a stoplight! It's just insane to me! Not to mention half of the drinks here all have rum or something in it. I think there was something in my pepsi because it didn't taste quite normal. If I was only a few more years older I could have sex on the beach! (Not literally of course, just the drink. It looked tasty.) Not that the idea of actally doing that sounds bad either. Ehehe.

Change of topic:

I've had the worst writers block lately. I can't seem to get any character muses listening. I swear I'd take a bat to my head if it meant I could get a good story out again. It's getting annoying to have great ideas but not be able to write them out. I've had this amusing semi-AU fanfictioin going in my head which has to be far too much crack then it needs to be but I like crack stories! You should see me and jezi roleplay together. All the inside jokes, making fun of characters. Oh it's a joy. In fact one of my other friends has a inside joke about Cain and sex on the beach. Though if you know what we've done in our roleplay it's not too huge inside. "SP-" "Spoon?" "Spa..." Sorry inside moment. Oh that funny.

I need to find more music I think. Some of it's still good like always but I beleive I need new music to get me in a writing mood. I'm not sure who I should trust to help me though I tend to be semi-picky depending on the person. I hate that. I'm picky yet not picky. I mean I only have so many different artists. I have...six or seven hundred songs. You'd think at least ONE would make me want to write. But nooo they don't. Stupid music. The Last Dance kind of makes me want to write but that's always some sort of sadist rape story that I sure as hell am not putting up to the public. I'm not a fan of my own writing much less sexual things~~. My boyfriend hates me for that.~~ xD I mean there's only so much to sex. True there can be a lot moe if you involve other things. -cough- Any ways change of subject again before I say something I really shouldn't!

Dynasty Warriors 6. I've been looking at that a dear lord. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY ZHOU YU?! Not to mention...Sima Yi...Zhange He. I don't know what on earth happened to them. I wonder what Zhang He has a weapon. Sima Yi has claw things. Zhou Yu has a pole. Dao sword to a pole. Fail much? And Sun Ce has a spear. I WANT HIS TONFAS BACK! They made Cao Pi look lovely and Diao Chan. ~~She's so beautiful I'd easily become a lesbian for her.~~ Haha. Of course it's for PS3 which I don't have. Maybe I may save up and get one for the game. I also kind of Devil May Cry 4. Only...it's not Dante. Not Dante. Nero. I do not like that. I want Dante back damnit! -sighs-

I think I've rambled enough so I'm going to be heading off for now. I will keep with updates on my trip and if I do get to swim with the Dolphins like I really, really want to! <3
Please disregard all spelling errors for I am feeling very lazy today.
Bye bye~

-Celes Maria Raith-

A different desire

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 07:18:18 GMT

There was only so much a person could do to keep from strangling another by the neck until all the life drained from their body. Sometimes, he wished a few certain terrans would roll over and die. One such could be that teenage brat. There was not enough alcohol and cigarettes could do to keep him from standing the boy. To believe all terrans were that foolish and annoying would be insulting to his former self. He wasn't much in the mood to make fun of who he used to be . On more then one occasion he made fun of his brazen youth, or perhaps it had been just the opposite. Slouching down in his chair he gave a long, bored sigh.

Really he was feeling very drained and a tad annoyed at a lack of tobacco around. The ever-slumbering lord did not quite ‘approve’ of him smoking. Not that it’d stopped him, it just wasn’t exactly in him to go around and get more when it was taken from him. The effort to get it back was not in him at the time either. He crossed his legs, staring over at the dim light cast from the fireplace.

Such a life this was becoming. It was a pain to be given the power he was by their lord, only to remember it was not he was in charge. Being the one to keep Cain alive, commonly being called for when in need of blood. Right now there was a slow growing desire to bite someone’s neck and drain them of blood. Lest one seeks their own tragic fate, it would be most wise to leave him be.

The long, quiet peace of his library was disturbed by the careless swinging open of the door, which meant no other but that foolish teenage brat. Of course, Dietrich was a valuable and a useful asset to the RCO. That did not change that behavior he had. He was in a sense very smug and tended to lie even more so then he did. The boy waltzed his way over and sat on the unoccupied arm of his chair. “You seem displeased.” The quick scoff was proof that Isaak was not in the best of his moods.

“Fatigued by the ways of others. I cannot fathom the reasons of mankind.” It was almost meaningless drabble that was once more spouting from his mouth, but perhaps it did have meaning. The boy didn’t see the point to the words and quirked a brow in response. A soft chuckle before his eyes closed. “Dietrich. Leave me be, get some life water while you are at it.”

“Oh, did our Lord use you again? He seems a little reliant on you, wouldn’t you say?” As the boy was not affected by the glare he was receiving, a sign for him to get out and do as told. Dietrich still paid no attention to these behavior reactions. Such things were common for a drained vampire. A pretty little terran boy like him would make perfect prey, only this little boy wasn’t completely weak and helpless.

“More so fatigued then weakened, you should know better. Do you not recall the last time?” When the boy cringed and stood up, scooting a little bit away from the mage. Last time he had a very dark mark on his neck from the bite. A repeat would be very troublesome and unwelcome change of pace. Flammenschwert had made quite a few snide remarks about what happened, even creating some rumors. It was such a pain to deal with those such things. He simply shuddered once at the remembrance.

The man laughed once more, sinking even further into his chair. “You were drinking earlier.” That would explain the different use of wordplay from his superior. Though for a superior and mentor he wasn’t very good, unless he felt like it. It could be disgusting the way Isaak acted sometimes. “You need to stop drinking. It doesn’t help you when you’re low on blood.”

“Get me life water and I shall be fine, unless you would prefer the alternative route.” The gaze was unsettling to say the least. It was the silence that followed and the unease etching itself into the boy’s face that made the mage grin wickedly. As his upper lip curled to reveal the fangs, he appeared to be just waiting patiently to drink into some poor fools neck. The clear inclination anyone could presume was the near-coming death of Dietrich for not being leaving him to find someone else, get life water, or suffer from the low blood-level.

Before any protest could be sound he found himself pulled onto the chair, fangs prodding at his partly exposed neck. He gave a small startled gasp and glared down at the other. “What do you think you’re doing?” Annoyance could not be anymore blatant if he tried. His eyes narrowed down, as the mage still paid no attention to the protest. Instead he merely began to sink his fangs into the soft skin, piercing it and already he began to drink the sweet crimson, the key to his life.

The teen tried to move away but halted when the realization came that moving back now would only secure something much worse then a few puncture wounds. When the fangs finally lifted he hit the bastard upside the head. “What the hell were you thinking?”

He appeared amused by the puppetmaster’s actions, the grin only confirmed it. When he reached out, he gently stroked the boy’s cheek. “Do you wish for me to die? I believe that would be most tragic to our cause. Losing a little blood is only a small sacrifice to the larger plan.”

Dietrich’s argument was beat before it even began. He was about to proclaim something else wrong, but merely placed a hand over the small bleeding wounds. “If I have a bruise-”

"You'll kill me. I've heard it plenty of times." As his arms released the other, he got up and stormed from the room, still grasping his neck. Isaak pulled out a pack of cigarettes, tapping the box a few times on his wrist before opening it and taking one out. He pulled the lighter from the table beside up, lighting it up. He took a long drag, slowly exhaling and watching the veil of smoke raise up to the ceiling absently. Dietrich was annoying, a pest, but under his command he would become much stronger, much better. The boy would learn much more then just his average deceit. Yes, he will craft Dietrich to be whatever he wanted him to be.

~

Early morning writing desire. Hope you enjoyed it. Farewell. <3

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 03:45:24 GMT

So I be back on LJ. Well I did have an account but I lost the info and god knows what e-mail account I used it on. Hell I don't even remember my name! I'm not exactly a genius at this point, am I? You know, I've come to realize something, I have odd interests. I suppose when you don't care about many things, you get into more things?

I admit I'm an anime/manga/video game loser and fanfic writer. I don't intend on sharing them unless I get a few people who read them ahead of time and such. When it comes to what I write though, I can come up with some pretty crack pairings, using even the smallest things. I suppose I'm trying to challenge myself by trying to write something that wouldn't happen and make it seem natural. Let's go with that.

Also, I need to make some AMV's. I do make a few, check me out on youtube: YueYing. No, I'm not doing any linking right now. I feel insanely lazy in that aspect. How terrible. I'm looking forward to joining some communities I've been watching and adding some stuff to them. I love writing, so probably somewhere that I feel I can trust my writings to. I don't know. Honestly, with my work, my mind is dead.

Okay, I don't understand people. Why would you try and order somewhere, and speak a a language no one understands? Seriously. I mean, I understood a little but not enough. Our human translator was on break too. It sucked so badly. Oh well, I guess I'm getting paid. That's what matters the most. ~shrug~ I'm afraid I don't have much else to add right now. For an intro post/random rambling I hope it isn't too boring/sucky. See you peeps later.

Ta

~*Celes Maria Raith*~

~*We who have nothing*~

Those who seek to avoid death are the first to be taken by it's hand

Mexico and a random life update!

Mexico and a random life update!

A different desire

~We who have nothing~